Nicole’s Diary of an Internet Affair describes her relationship with a guy she met on the internet. They fall in love online, and eventually decide to meet. It’s a nice story, the sort of thing you smile and talk about in whimsical tones at dinner parties with civilized people.
This is really happening, In 20 minutes the man that I have come to love and I will meet for the first time. I feel the watering of my eyes as I try to suppress the sick feeling that I have felt all day. My legs carry me as fast as I can allow them to, towards our meeting place …
I suppose the romantic nature of the story makes it hard to forget that Nicole and her lover Paul are both married, with children. She mentions this fact only once, as part of her site’s tagline:
We were both married and should have known better, but we couldn’t help falling in love and our lives changed forever…
Am I the only one who finds this wrong? Her diary focuses solely on her relationship with Paul; I spotted just one reference to her family in a month’s worth of entries, as if they are a completely unrelated subject, a different world. And maybe they are, to her.
Paul strokes my fingers with his thumb and this feels right, I feel no guilt. [...] This is perfect!
I’ve been asking myself why she decided to write this all out in a public blog. Is it some sort of catharsis? Does she want to get people’s opinions?
Is it a love letter to Paul?
I sincerely hope it’s not because she’s proud of cheating on her husband and her family, because, from the way this is written, she sure could’ve fooled me.